God's Loneliest Men or (Writing Chapter Two)

Recently I heard a film critic use “God’s Loneliest Men” to describe the Hollywood action heroes of the 80’s and 90’s.   

Those grizzled, whiskey-shooting lone wolves were my patron saints: their split knuckles, my zodiac. I taught myself martial arts from library books, practiced one-liners while falling asleep, and learned how to say goodbye with nothing but a look. 

Those were my impressionable years.

After a summer love turned winter, so did I.  I joined the military, hoping my secret failings would be burnt away in its fires; and what remained hammered into a cold hard silence.

My heart was a machine whose purpose was to push the body forward; the body would be the instrument that would "diffuse the bomb" or "vanquish the ancient evil."  The reality is the opposite: the body is the machine -- the heart the instrument of salvation.

I wasn’t saving others.  I was saving myself from the human ache.

© Dan Kosmayer

© Dan Kosmayer

The poems in the second chapter of My Father’s Hand Is a Mountain Range are about loneliness, loss, and how seeds do their work in the dark.

They are a small collection of long walks through bad weather, and dances with rain.

The oldest poem was written seventeen years ago for a soldier who was swallowed by a solitude.

Another poem questions the weight of fingerprints, how those whorls and loops foreshadow the mazes we carry inside.

There’s one that addresses the body's inevitable betrayals.  Another where a bruised apple demands the intimacy of a wounded lover. 

In the most recent one, the poem is a lawyer who visits the reader in a self-made prison.

When it has come down hard enough for long enough, even rain can look like bars.

When it has come down hard enough for long enough, even rain can look like bars.

I say all the above, and every post that follows, with this caveat: Maybe.  Maybe that’s what these poems are about. 

These musings are the wreckage dislodged by passing storms from my drowned cities.  I have no idea what they might stir in you, if anything at all. 

To paraphrase the poet Stephen Dunn: It is the reader who completes the poem.  That being said, I look forward to hearing how you finish them.